I want to get out of my body desperately. There is no end in sight, this is the worst it’s been in years and I can not find anything to hold on to in this moment to keep me calm. I try to breathe and it feels worse. I don’t know why all these negative thoughts are attacking me right now but I can’t get a grip. They’re totally winning and I can’t say or think anything to prove them wrong. I agree. I have nothing nice to say about myself or my life. I have been such an epic failure. I’m not even fun to be around. I always hate myself and that’s why everyone else hates me too.